No one knows what I really feel inside. Not even my closest friends know about this. I absolutely hate talking about my feelings in this load of bullshit. I usually keep my negative thoughts suppressed in my mind, but lately these thoughts have been getting bigger. So big that it has even outweighed the positive thoughts in my mind.
- I don’t even care if I die right now. I doubt anyone would miss me besides my family. My friends would probably just shrug it off.
- Ever since I asked you, I feel like you just said yes because you pitied me. You probably thought I would of been crushed if you said No straight up. I would of been fine if you said no. Its not like I fit your standards of a good-looking guy or other bullshit like that because I don’t.
- I have no purpose in life.
- I have no talents.
I need to get rid of these thoughts as fast as I can. I kept these negative shit suppressed for years. The only reason I actually am typing about this is to release these thoughts, and hopefully it’ll be gone.